I want my mommy!

So I don't want to make my mom feel bad because I know she would be here ASAP if it were possible. Quite honestly I'm not even sure there's much she could do, there are just those times when you want your mom. I get to talk to her often on the phone, but it's just not the same. I'm in a very whiny mood, so I will not be at all offended if you don't want to continue reading. This post is purely for me to be a big baby!

I have been feeling so very sick the last couple of weeks and I am just plain "sick" of it. I feel so bad that I'm not being the wife/mom/housekeeper/cook/etc. I should be because I feel so lousy all the time. Jared is so amazing. He's doing such a good job taking care of me and never complains when things don't get done. Whenever he's home he does things around the house, helps with the kids and meals and is on poop patrol (changes Urban's diapers, helps Addison in the bathroom and cleans up after the dog outside). He even goes to the grocery store for me most of the time because I am so sensitive to smells (good & bad) and boy are there a lot of smells out there in the world! He really is such a big help, I'm so grateful for him.

My sister, Heather, is doing a great job too. She calls me everyday to check on me and see how I'm doing. She asks if I need anything and makes sure I'm okay during the day when Jared isn't home. She always offers to take the kids so I can get some rest. She is a very sweet and helpful big sister.

Even Addison and Urban are doing their part to comfort me. I love those kids so much (goodness, I'm getting teary eyed just thinking about their sweet acts of kindness). Almost every time I run to the bathroom to throw up they run in right behind me. Addison stands to the side of me rubbing my back and stroking my hair saying "I love you so much mom, I'm so sorry this is happening to you". Urban just leans on my back giving me a hug from behind and says "I uh you". Occasionally he'll get right in my face and ask me why I'm doing that, which just makes me giggle in an otherwise awful situation. They are so protective and concerned about what's going on, it's so cute. It's just another reminder as to why I'm doing this again. Oh, in case you haven't gotten it yet, YES, I'M PREGNANT! Although I feel like crap most of the time and it's sometimes hard to think about anything other than trying not to throw up, it is so worth it. (I have to keep reminding myself)

Every time Jared comes home and they run up to him and jump into his arms to give him hugs and kisses I feel better for a brief moment. Every time I see the two of them sitting on the couch hugging each other I feel better and can't wait to add another one to that hug. Every time they hug me and tell me they love me and rub my back, I feel a little bit better.

So even though I wish I didn't get so sick, and I know it's possible to have healthy pregnancies & babies without getting sick...I've heard of lots of women, I guess this is just one of my trials. Perhaps it gives me a greater appreciation for my health, for my husband, for my kids, for my mom & sister...who knows!

Anyway, enough with the pity party. I had my first doctor's appointment yesterday and everything looks great. I am about 9 weeks along which will give me a due date around November 26th. I got to see some pictures and the little bug is cute as can be. I know, only a mother... We are all very excited and can't wait for this new addition to join our family.